Let Your Mind Drift...
THE JOURNEY.
Feeling completely alone
But in the zone
simply trying
to do what you gotta do
But somehow
losing you
yourself
is gone
or slowly slipping away
out here acting crazy
screaming your own name
sounding some other level of insane
talking like
where you going?
why are you doing
this, that, & the other?
completely separated
outside of yourself
& creating a new self
who eventually
needs no approval
from no one else
HER
She'll open up if you treat her right
Get to know all about the insides
The walls and the crevices
the weird little fetishes
She'll open up if you treat her right
There's no problem with how deep she is
Dive into the deep sea and really see
How deep she is
How pretty she is
How delicate she is
She'll open up if you treat her right
Give her a little patience and time
Won't have to work too hard
Before you know it
your too hard
and things have gone too far
But just far enough
Need a gentle touch
I promise
She'll open up if you treat her right
Blue Skies.
Blue skies
and I'm stuck inside
Why so dry?
Need to moisturize my mind
let something else inside
rather than my usual thoughts
On a cycle
or turning table
Whichever makes sense
But none of it really
makes sense
YOU
Your skin
reminds me of soft pillows
I want to lay on forever
Your eyes
remind me of the beauty that lies
in midnight
so dark but somehow shine so bright
your smile
something so beautiful
it always feels like
I haven't seen it in a while
and you?
Man you and all that you are
is so far past
my ability to explain
and put in to words
you and your soul
are the best things
I've ever come to know
brings tears to my eyes
and moisture between my thighs
the world is what I want to give to you
Oh man
YOU
YOU
YOU
Divine Love
I want to be all the things you need
I want to be all the things you want
So can you tell me and keep it plain please
What exactly turns you on
you can speak it
better yet show it
Because I know you're better at that
I need examples, previews, explanations
give me all of that
What is it you crave
Want me to say your name?
Ever so sweet
as you enter me
and I receive
you and your body
Oh baby tell me
what makes you naughty
but so sweet at the same time
you're so divine
to me
I just hope you see
you're oh so divine
and you and your love
are right on time
Brewing. Just Brew.
So tired of the noise
but I crave the noise
a distraction or subtraction
of all the shit
just want to leave it
for the birds
they're the ones who dropped it anyway
wishing and praying the demons away
they've gotten so bold
and clever with the things they say
correct words to hurt just right
keep me up all hours of the night
but smile and wave
you've got the energy they crave
your life appears to be so good
so keep a lid on it
don't get too rude
wait till your home
so you can just BREW
Change In Taste.
Have things really changed
or are my taste buds not the same?
See I'm a little confused
Cuz I used to crave you
and this
but now I'm through
doesn't please me in the same way
and I don't know if its the fact that
things have changed
or my taste buds just aren't the same
Final Countdown.
Done & Finished
With all of this
no more time
no more energy
no more attention
revenge has gotten into me
And I don't like it
All these vices
causing crisis
& catastrophe
Better for me to gain distance
and progress in solidarity
No End In Sight.
You can feel it deep
through and through
all the waves it makes you go through
you can feel it all
almost the same as a fall
in a dream
so real it seems
but reality kicks in
& you notice
it was all a figment
of your imagination
your image-nation
you see these words pour out of me
and once I'm done
the sea that's me
still runs so deep
too deep
for me to see
an ending in sight
at this point
time to take flight
Lonely Souls
Think I gotta stop
runnin' away from myself
for the sake of my mental health
Think I gotta stop tryna help myself
So consumed and confused
Everyday lyin'
Actin' like I know what to do
Goin crazy. don't think you'd last
a second in my shoes
so instead I choose
to use and abuse
Somehow it seems I'm doing so much better
No written letters
No double texts
or missed calls
ain't nobody worried about me at all
but stay hopin' they never get that call...
Straight silence
While I drive myself insane
within these 4 walls
it's almost like I'm trapped
But can't put no one else at fault for that
feel so attacked
every time a helping hand is offered
I only know to push back
As if I don't need a thing
ignore my phone, every time I hear it ring
Repetition.
Repetition is no condition to live in
Constantly making yourself heard
For no one to really hear
What's really to be made clear
over the years, months, and days
of this life
there's stress and there's strife
there's happiness and bliss
so what's really to be made clear
through repetition
that's just no reality to live in
constantly giving explanation
to your creation
from the factors of life
no way to be
not the way of life
Aight.
Drip, Drip.
I can hear in the distance
more of an echo
eerie feeling to the night
rainy day outside
but a feeling so dry
steam emerges
perhaps dry ice
don't really get this
shrug my shoulders
and say "Aight"
Game Of Life.
There's always more
in store
its never over
till the last breath
is taken
shook to the core
petrified of this game
unexpected turns
unexpected losses
unexpected gains
in the end
there will be
multiple meanings
behind your name
and your frame
will never look the same
Stagnant.
Tickin'
Tockin'
The clock just going
But I'm here
Stagnant
No movement detected
Is my heart beating?
My thoughts are still zoomin'
My soul feels something
That you simply can't put into words
Share them they say
Open up, they all want to see
But do you really want to see?
It's dark
Gone be a long time before you recognize the light in me
Searching and searching
Through my mind
My brain
This unending sea
of thoughts, memories, and emotions
To try and decipher me
I do the same thing
Sometimes it burdens me
Sometimes it brings me joy
Sometimes I just want NOISE
To block everything out
Waste of energy to
Scream or shout
So I'll just sit and wait
Till I have something to do
Something to occupy my mind
Something to take my focus
Maybe, hopefully, unlikely
Someone will notice
Let You In?
Let you inside?
We talking body or brain
Make me rain
or drive me completely insane
Rain pours
Steady stream from my eyes or thighs?
Insanity causes the high pitch
of my screams and cries
Why oh why
is it like this
Can't get satisfactory bliss
Without a bucket load of craziness
So you want me to let you inside?
We talking body or brain
Cuz I don't think either of us is ready for the rain
or the membrane
I'm Good. We Good.
I'm good...
Right?
We good...
Right?
That's what I tell myself
cuz you know
there's more than one.
I'm good. We good.
Misunderstood
in my own head
telling myself lies
but begging for the truth instead
lies like
I'm good. We good.
Don't project. Keep a smile.
Give out compliments. Endure for a long while
Meanwhile, I'm about to explode
or implode, who really knows
Over analyzing. Then re-realizing
who and what aint shit
So clear, but still can't quit
is this even a poem
or am I just rambling
Oh yeah, I forgot
I'm good. We good.
All 5
Can I just have a taste?
of that beautiful mind of yours
I wanna know
what it feels like
what it looks like
what it sounds like
yes all 5
what it tastes like
what it smells like
all 5
in due time
you'll know mine
too
its deeper than
the feeling of you
inside the rivers of me
but trust me
that's a goal too
little nasty
yes I must admit
much experience isn't necessary
if you feel the flow
and just let go
you'll know
you'll know
Everything Aint What it Seems
Red or blue
Silver or gold
same habits
starting to grow old
and tired
and usual
this bullshit
is just so typical
racing and racing
then
pacing and pacing
My heart
is out of control
lost complete competence
when it comes to my soul
cant turn to you
because all you do is scold
then bring up the old
my scars are so deep
they are almost unnoticeable
to me
until you start to pick
and pry
then out of frustration
I start to cry
then here you go
faking sympathy
or empathy
obliviously asking me
why?
I.D.K.
I could try
But what's the point?
I've tried before
Then was left alone
to gather pieces of me
from the floor.
Return to sender
is what I think
but the words never successfully
leave
my mouth the same way
they form in my brain.
One part of me says stay
The other part's pleading
That you stay away.
Cuz it's never consistent.
Erratic behavior
that I don't notice
until way later
when I have time to think
and ponder
and wonder
why?
In and out of my life
for what?
Am I a crutch
or just enough
when you need a gentle touch
for your mind and soul
yeah you grow
but me, I just don't know
Good To Meet You.
Floating above it all.
I like to think
that's how I live my life
Surviving around it all
rather than
surviving through it
Sheltered?
A little, maybe
It's okay though
I'm not a young baby
yes by age
that's the truth
but look into these eyes
they know some things too
Sit down
and have a conversation
listen to my thoughts
and share yours too
break through this
stupid wall I have
and make me wanna shake my ass
I'm not your average person
Nor am I that special
but I am a different
type of human being
Glad I met you.
Memories.
Pound for Pound.
Take a long walk on a short dock.
Ima do like a Hindu, and do what I can do.
Just 3 of the many phrases you'd use
God I hope and pray
these memories never fade away
Then sometimes think,
"If only you could see me today,
see the world today,
see us all today."
How different things would be
getting to know you
and you getting to know me
We are all ever-changing
and its a beautiful experience
can't believe your missing out on this
As an adult
As a woman
All I can do is reminisce
Nothing is ever perfect
but for what its worth
the memories and moments we did have
are definitely worth it
It's All For The Nut
Falling faster
deeper
into
disaster,
catastrophe.
every moment
is beyond me
even the energy
is too unique
it almost bothers me
tryna be all cute and shit
as if history
and trauma don't exist
What exactly is this
because at times
your at the top of the radar
for speaking complete bullshit
or is this your way of conveying
bliss and love
to get a touch
that's just enough
Oh I get it...
It's all for the nut
Contradictions Of The Heart
Fragile yet so strong
unseen but vital
to survival
What would you & I do
Without the heart
When in love
it beats so strong
but the ability
to break it in two
seems to easy too obtain
Makes it so much harder
to remain
calm through this all
The stress
Can send my heart beating
out of it's chest
Or my chest
This so called protective shield
I'm the only one in the field
Battlefield
The ups and downs
The lovely and haunting sounds
Oh how fragile
yet so strong
Broken heart equals motivation
The heart is the source of life
And creation
Seasons Changing. Emotions Rearranging.
Seasons Changing
Emotions Rearranging
Sun is shining now
Can't be stuck
wondering when
& how
seasons changing
emotions rearranging
zero time left
to be focused on the next
need to rest
seasons changing
emotions rearranging
gotta get the mind
right
no energy left
for these pointless fights
seasons changing
emotions rearranging
selfish or more aware
as i mature
my purpose
is becoming more clear
seasons changing
emotions rearranging
I Got You
Soft spoken
Just the way I like you
such a calm aura
wish everyone
could get me
the way you do
never do you gotta
chase me down
a promise I can make
is that I'll hold you down
so will you bless me
with the crown
Make me your queen
do me the honor my king
vow to you
you wont regret a thing
Not even here
pushing for a ring
just aiming
for everything
in our path
and then fly
so far past that
Comfort For Blinding
I'm so lost
Been feelin' so lost
Can I afford the cost
that's required to find me?
Is there any help
or just comfort for blinding
Me from the truth
from me to you
We can find comfort
in pain and hurt too
It's On Me
Love
What does that mean?
Another soul to use?
Another heart to abuse?
Losing one's self
to one who cares for no one else?
Is it a compromise?
or the journey to one's demise
Golden plated satisfaction
in this game
we've thrown our emotions into
each level, feeling weaker than before
recurring damage to a wound never healed
Bleeds out dry blood onto the floor
reopening old scars
stuck in a toxic cycle
of give and take
from empty vessels
dying, trying to find escape
but no exit is near
walls up out of fear
Never brave enough
to speak up
It's my fuck up
I'm the reason
I feel so stuck
Take A Toke
Take a Toke
Try your best
to not
Choke
But if you do
Much better for you
Takes you to a different place
Where you begin to question you
I guess the cough isn't required
but after it's done
feel so inspired
to be so intent
focused and mesmerized
by whatever is or isn't happening
in front of my eyes
Simpler text
it makes things more intense
the feel
the real
the story
and the tell
show me
the depths I don't usually see
that's what happens when I
Take a Toke
and dive into the ocean
The raging sea that's me
Writers Block.
Blank
Can't find the words to say
Not caring if they're right or wrong
but just wishing I could move along
getting so stuck
can't identify in what
maybe it's just bad luck
stress and anxiety
only things driving me
Guess it's not the worst combination
on my good days
you wouldn't believe
my creativity and imagination
At times it comes so easy
that's when my handwriting
isn't so neat
but when i ponder
on what should come next
I find myself stuck
rather than just giving it a rest
Satisfaction Together
Rain pourin' down my thighs
Calming effect
Of our moans and sighs
No more screamin'
kinda ruins the moment
but grab me the right way
in the right place
sure makes me go
insane
your presence
is stimulation enough
simply your touch
makes me go nuts
Don't think
just do
everything will flow
the way its supposed to
My body will guide you
on the things
I need from you
Im listenin'
so that way
you get yours too
Teamwork
Makes the
Dreamwork
Right?
We can do this together
completely satisfied
the entire night
Lost In Us
Completely Free
to be
who we are
when we're alone
No thought processes needed
Our bodies have complete control
every move is correct
every moment is perfect
every word makes sense
even the vibe is so intense
fully comfortable
No walls or guards up
stopping us
complete trust
whether its love or lust
No judgements are even thought of
cuz we're simply lost
in the midst of
Us
This Is Your Life.
No matter what anyone has to say
Continue to move along with your day
Don't hold on so strong
To the words people decide to use
Put negative thoughts out of mind
Realize those things
Are a pure waste of time
No need to put it on display
As some sort of warning
Of an unexpected change
If one's don't understand
Or aren't willing to even try
There's no need to explain
The strategy behind the way
You decide to play
The hand you were dealt
Hollow is the Heart
Empty promises
Empty love
Empty trust
Hollow
Is the heart
From trying to create genuine art
But being filled
With nothing but empty
Empty promises
Empty love
Empty trust
Hollow is the heart
Crushed. Diamond.
Crush my soul
Turned me into a diamond
Bet you didn't know what you was doin
You was for sure I would be ruined
That aint the case for me
Can't put your hands on God's property
Powerful.
What you hold
Is made up
Of a substance unknown
When given the choice of which road
Always seeming sure
Of which way to go
Getting through life
The only way you know how
But deep down
Each moment
Seems like a trial
Making the shit
Look so easy
Maybe thats why
Your persona
Is so intriguing
Unfamiliar
The strength thats shown
Admiring one whose so damaged
Yet so damn powerful
Love. Drugs.
Talk about love
Talk about drugs
One in the same
Running the same game
Just got a different name
Still gotta make a choice
Easier road
Or the difficult
Choose
Pain
Or
Pleasure
YES.
terrified
of the truth you may hold
petrified
of the feelings in my soul
theres days
i wanna be next to you
then theres days
id be around anything
other than you
by choice
ive chosen
to be this way
to say
your the cause
would be a sad lie
for its my fault
we have to watch these lines
be careful
not to cross
never wanna criss
make that x
then your my ex
and
our story ends
or does it begin
cause we should be friends
never more
could be less
id rather not talk about it
gets me a little stressed
to be so honest
is something of you
something of me too
but who are we to blame
they say opposites attract
but i think i loved you
since the first time
we crossed tracks
Untitled.
How blinding can lust be
So comfortable
But hating these feelings
Preach against the contradictory
Accepting your own truth
How can it be a mystery
Steady contemplating
What is and what's next
But forgetting the issue
Of disregarding
What's beating in my chest
The Real Story
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